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Hey guys, i'm Adanna and i'm from Barbados. Reader and a music lover.

"I AM A WEAK, EPHEMERAL CREATURE MADE OF MUD AND DREAM. BUT I FEEL ALL THE POWERS OF THE UNIVERSE WHIRLING WITHIN ME."

I know I haven’t been on here in a while, but yeah I have to rant and this tumblr is the only place I know to go

My boyfriend is leaving me in Barbados for 3 weeks which to much doesn’t seem like a long time but imagine you’ve been seeing one person everyday for the past 2 years. How the fuck am I supposed to survive 3 weeks? Today we went to the beach which all in all was fun but the walk home not so much. We had an argument about his friends and the amount of attention he was paying to me (sounds petty but he’s leaving tomorrow). I got upset and stormed away. He ran behind me and said ‘you can’t be mad at your natty, not today’. I slight laugh escaped my mouth even though I really didn’t want it to. He put me down and I laughed a bit but it wasn’t a i’m really happy laugh it was a shaky if you don’t stop i’ll cry laugh. I looked at him and said ‘stop you’re going to cry’ and he said ‘you’re not’

Of course. Me being the unstable emotional teenage girl I am. I broke down Not the tears streaming. The body jerking, loud (not very cute) cry. He held on to me and said ‘i’m not leaving you. i’m always here;

the whole point of this cheesy, pointless story is to show that I honestly don’t even know. I don’t want him to leave me. I have no one else here. He’s my bestfriend. There’s a 5 hour time difference and that’ll be very difficult in a sense. This is hard and this sucks. I don’t have anyone else to tell this story to because i’m kind of a loner and I know i’m whining and this story is lame but I don’t have anyone else

I only have my Natty and he’s leaving. I don’t know what else to do with my life. Summer is sort of sucking so far